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Chapter 1
“Stop it! You fuckers are all going to be sorry, just you wait! Let me DOWWWN!” A rabid, shrill voice screeched, followed by a lingering, “Owwww!”
The potty-mouthed, child-like voice was squealing loud enough to carry up into my apartment upstairs. Shortly after, laughter and taunting ensued.
I was abruptly pulled out of my deep sleep, not so much by the pleas for help, but from hunger pains.
Severe hunger pains.
Though a huge ham steak, sunny-side up eggs and chorizo and potato hash with salsa was calling to me, it wasn’t what I found myself salivating for when my eyes fluttered open. And that’s when I became completely aware of the fang points against the inside of my bottom lip.
“Aaahhh! Don’t! KAI!” I heard that personal call for help this time through a hum of conversation and laughter. I rubbed my eyes and sat up in bed quickly.
What the hell? I grumbled as I hopped out of bed, dashing out out into the living room with robe in hand, and spying a hunched yellow ball of fur in the kitchen from my periphery. Twinkie was giving me the evil eye, crouched next to his empty food bowl.
“Yeah, yeah, you and me both.” I snapped. I slipped into my robe, pulling it closed around my waist once I hit the landing of the stairs. The pathetic squeaking was still underway.
“LET ME DOWN FROM HERE, DO YOU HEAR ME?” Blythe shouted in a hostile squeak. Even in her anger, her tone and appearance couldn’t be taken seriously.
“What’s going on down here?” I griped. Intense hunger irritating me more than anything else right now. Accusingly, my eyes traveled from Jax, Riza, Stone, and finally rested on Isis.
They all formed a circle beneath a floating and slowly spinning sequined and crystal- beaded doll in the center of the room. She could've been a disco ball if it weren't for her arms, legs, and head.
Blythe was being used as a piñata, and much to my non-surprise, Isis currently had the stick.
“Kai, help me! Please!” Her eyes were desperate.
Gnashing my teeth, my fangs nearly drawing blood from my own lip, I ran both of my hands through my hair in frustration. My body temperature was rising with the need to hunt Nocturna and feed. But where would I find any during the day though?
Wait. I had some chilled in my fridge, courtesy of Gage. Okay, revving up to rage and bitch was slowly subsiding.
Jax coughed into his fist with an incoherent, “Nocturna alert."
Then, he scratched the back of his neck with a slight nod in Isis's direction. "This was all her idea.” He confessed as he held his hands up and wrapped them around his neck and throat protectively.
“You snitching dick!” Isis threw at him scathingly.
Jax’s side comment irked me. “Blood is blood, Jax. Don’t tempt me.” I cautioned him with a predatory glare.
Yes, it was Isis’s magic no doubt, but I was positive that Jax’s encouragement fit in there somewhere.
Without making eye contact, Riza quietly backed up and returned behind the bar to finish prepping for opening. Stone turned and strode towards the front entrance, whistling without so much as a glance over his shoulder at me.
Isis couldn’t walk away blameless from this even if Blythe weren’t being levitated by Sylph magic.
“I’m heading to the docks to meet the delivery boat.” Jax threw up his hands in surrender before I could chew him out for his role in this.
“Yeah, you do that.” I suggested in agreement as he turned to walk away and head outside. Then, I glanced up at Blythe, “Other than the obvious, what’s going on?”
Blythe’s tear-streaked porcelain face was nearly crimson and her large, teal eyes were glistening. When our eyes met, hers went full round with surprise conveying both confusion and fear.
I sighed. Damn. She didn’t know about my newly acquired curse. My metamorphosis and acute thirst for Nocturna blood was conveniently bestowed upon me by a trespassing Nocturna that we were hunting a few months ago.
“We were just having a little fun. No harm done.” Isis grinned maliciously up at her.
“Bullshit! They were trying to kill me!” Blythe jabbed an accusing finger down at her.
“Oh cut the dramatics! When I said no flower doilies, glittery napkins in the shape of bunnies, and mushroom bouquets on the tables, I meant it! This is a bar, not a damned Fayri teahouse!” Isis’s words were hard and clipped.
Blythe’s miniature physique began to descend slowly—at first.
Then, she suddenly hit the floor with a thud, pushing a sharp mew sound out of her in a rush of air. I felt horrible as I fought to stifle an instant chuckle with a hand clamped casually over my mouth.
She promptly scrambled to her feet while batting the light dust off of her frilly and sequined apron. If Blythe was anything, it was definitely ornamental.
“Kai said I could do whatever I wanted to make the bar pretty!” She defended with her hands on her hips. Visually, I couldn’t take her seriously. I couldn’t even think straight anyway until I satiated my thirst.
I strangely felt like I was scolding my own child when it came to Blythe. “No, I did not say that you could do whatever you wanted. Apparently, you misunderstood. I said to tend to the plants both inside and outside, and to keep the bar clean, which includes your mouth.” I clarified.
She shrugged. “Same thing. But you guys get to curse all the time.” She pointed out as she crossed her arms over her chest in a pout.
I bit my lip in annoyance, deciding at some point that I may just have to take her over my knee. The logic and attitude of a cocky and rude adult, and the face of a painted doll on the body of a three- year old just did not compute with me. Hell, I couldn’t give the valid, ‘Because we’re adults, that’s why,’ argument with her. According to Jewel, she was much older than most of us in years.
“Because it sounds all kinds of wrong when you do, Thumbelina.” Isis replied with one hand on her hip and the other twirling the piñata stick.
Blythe reared her skinny leg back to kick Isis in her shin, as if that would have hurt her, but I grabbed her by the back of her pony tail and tugged her backwards. She gasped, appalled.
“I can fire you as easily as I hired you. Do not get yourself banned permanently. No violence and no magic allowed in here, got it?” I pointed at her.
She frowned with a huff.
I looked at Isis then, “That goes for you too. You of all people know the rules.”
“No, the rules actually say, no magic or violence during business hours. We still have thirty minutes before opening.” Isis corrected me with a quick glance at her watch.
I narrowed my eyes at her and she smiled dutifully. Isis loves doing that to me. She’s lucky she’s my best friend.
Blythe turned to me, expecting me to come down on Isis for her smart-assed response. Instead, she found herself staring up at my mouth in fascination.
“Why do you have fangs like the Nocturna, Kai? I thought you were a Hunter?” She finally decided to ask.
“I am. It’s a long story. I’m not what you think but I’m not afraid to use them either.” I warned her.
HUMANS: The Veiled World: Chronicle 2: Bloodless Black Sheep- Coming October 2016
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Divinity The Gathering Book One (Excerpt)
“Are
you going to answer any of my questions?” she asked with a hint of impatience.
“I
can’t.”
Her
eyes widened at my simple reply but I think she took it just as she should
have— affirmation that what she was asking, saying and thinking . . . were all
correct, so far.
“Even
if I already know?”
“What
do you think you know?”
There
was momentary silence.
“You
don’t smell like or look like the others I’ve encountered at all. I don’t get
sick to my stomach around you and your feather is still pure white, but . . .”
she deduced and stopped herself.
I
waited for the beat of a few seconds, exhaling slowly to release the tension
that had begun to grip me all over.
“But
what?”
That
was the longest few seconds I’ve ever experienced, waiting for her to speak
again.
“Drake
is the angel, isn’t he?” She finally concluded.
I
could literally feel my spirit breaking at the fact that she did know. Saying
it aloud was much different that her simply knowing it, and I felt anger,
shame, regret, and sorrow all weighing down heavily upon me at once.
We
weren’t far from the farmhouse, maybe about a mile or so, but I pulled the car
over to the shoulder and parked the car anyway. She instantly tensed, keeping
her widening eyes on me with caution.
“Why
are you pulling over?” She wanted to know.
I
looked at her, unsure of what I wanted to say.
The
rules had long since been broken but I hadn’t been the one to do it.
Technically, I never revealed to her directly what I was at any given time.
Drakael’s
voice entered my head just then, instantly pissing me off. He had his nerve,
not only to be watching us but to have to gall to speak to me telepathically —
and right now of all times.
“Don’t
you dare do it! You’ve gotten away with quite enough already.” He warned.
“Screw
you! She’s already called you out as you’ve just heard. I told you that she
would figure you out soon too, you moron.”
Good.
If he was watching now, then he could watch me kill her too, just like I had
wanted.
“You
don’t seem afraid.” I said, while listening to the vicinity around us for
Drakael or any other being for that matter.
“I
am afraid but not of you.” She answered.
Her response shocked me. I looked
at her curiously to gauge just how serious she was about that. Her heart beat
hadn’t increased and her posture remained somewhat relaxed. She was telling the
truth.
“Then maybe you really don’t know
or understand what I really am.”
Divinity Transcendence Book 2 (Excerpt)
I
wasn’t trying to be rude. I was too busy marveling at it all. The unnatural sky
above caught my attention. It wasn’t as dark as I thought it was. It was more
of a purple blue and the moon looked wrong, like the color of pink chalk with a
hint of yellow and blue mixed in. There were thousands of stars though, and it
niggled at the back of my subconscious as if I should have been seeing
something in them.
“Why
does the moon look like that?” I asked him.
He
turned to look at me, “This is the spirit realm. It’s a completely different
dimension—one of many, actually.” He replied.
I
glanced over at him curiously. “A dimension? Not like heaven or hell?” I asked.
“Neither,
but all the beings and creatures that you never thought existed before, exist
here. Not all of them are bad though.”
I
stopped walking and looked at him with alarm. “Creatures like what?”
“Angels,
demons, imps, shadows, all kinds of dark beings, light guardians, and of course
the devil himself.” He grinned.
I
shivered at the mere mention of those words, not because it scared me but
because it all sparked a memory in my mind. A memory that I couldn’t quite
piece together fully.
“How
long have you been here?” I asked him as we continued to walk down the long
corridor.
“I
don’t even keep track of time anymore. There’s no point and you’ll come to find
out why soon enough.” He replied. “This
way.” he motioned with a nod of his head.
We
made a right at the end of the ‘T’ split corridor.
“So,
you just train and live here day after day?” I asked as I bit into a
strawberry.
It
was incredibly sweet and juicy. The explosion of flavor completely overwhelmed my
taste buds, rising into the back of my throat and my nose, and reminding me of
why I absolutely adored strawberries in the first place.
“Wow,
these are really good. Want one?” I offered, holding one out to him.
He
declined with a shake of his head. “No thanks. I come back every now and then
to train and do brandings, but I don’t stay here for more than a few daybreaks
at a time.” He replied.
“Oh,
that’s right. You live in the human world.” I remembered Lira saying in the
dining hall. Durien was a veteran.
He
nodded. “Yep.”
“How
long before you can decide?” I asked.
He
shrugged a shoulder. “It depends. You need to learn about the spirit world
around you first. Understanding what you are now, what you can do, and the role
you play in all of it is important. Learning how to fight comes secondary but
it’s highly crucial. You won’t master it overnight, although I don’t think
it’ll be difficult for you to do.” He smiled.
I
nodded.
It
was silent as I finished my strawberries. There was so much that I wanted to
ask, I didn’t know where to start.
Durien
spoke again, “There’s going to come a time when we’re all going to have to go
against darkness. Not just us, the human race I mean. We’re the frontlines
though. We have the abilities, the wit, and the divine backing. We’re the
shields against the darkness. Training is about ninety percent of why we’re all
here.” He gestured with his hands as he spoke. He too, gazed off into the
distance at the sky above.
I could actually hear the night
insects out there. I concentrated on the sound of waves and the rippling of
water. It was refined, bringing in the scent of fresh, cool moisture and earth.
“So, level with me. I mean, the
real reason why I seem to be so popular already and what that girl was talking
about in the dining hall. Is that why you wanted to talk to me?” I finally
broke the silence.
I heard him breathe in, followed by
a hesitant pause, and then a sigh.
Durien drew his legs up to his
chest, wrapping his arms around his knees, and clasping a hand around his
opposite wrist.
“I’m not trying to freak you out or
anything but keep in mind that when you move past the boundaries of the Divine
hall and past the sanctified lands, things get extremely dangerous. Every word
and sound you make, your every move . . . even your smell is being heard,
watched, and tracked.” He began.
I tensed but I was paying
attention.
He licked his lips, glancing out
into the darkness.
His eyes returned to mine, “The
dark ones single us out by auras. If we were actually just a few feet outside
the vicinity of the hall grounds right now, they could see and hear us talking.
By that, I mean that they can actually hear every single word of our
conversation. That’s what makes them so sneaky and deadly. Even though they
can’t cross into sanctified lands, let alone the divine hall, all they have to
do is wait because at some point— you will be in their territory. Now, with
your aura, you’re gonna have to be extra careful. You’re a walking spotlight—
literally and…” He trailed off.
My eyes were round with intrigue,
my mouth parting slightly wondering why he stopped.
“And what?” I finally asked.
He exhaled and shifted, standing
back up, and gazing out into the night.
“Remember when I said earlier that
the dark ones prefer us over normal mortals?” He began.
“Yes.”
His hesitation was beginning to
annoy me. I stood up too.
“Process of either elimination or
temptation. Each of us were chosen. Because of that, we were able to see things
of this plane during our mortal existence. The dark ones already know who we
are, but we don’t always know who they are and we still have choices. We’re not
off limits, meaning we can still be killed— and turn on each other. It’s
happened many, many times before.” Durien began to explain.
That wasn’t positive news. Why was
he telling me this? I wondered.
“We can still be killed? I thought
we were immortal?”
He smiled. “We are. All that means
is that you won’t age, you’ll heal extremely fast from most injuries, and it
will take a lot to really do some damage, but we can be killed. We’re
superhumanly stronger, faster, and smarter now though. We have to be. It’s our
only edge. We’re going against beings that have the advantage of time,
immortality, great strength, magic, and abilities that we can only dream of
having. Here in this realm . . . they aren’t bound to any Universal Laws. The
only reason I’m telling you all of this so soon,” he explained and then turned
to look at me. “Is because they already know who you are by face— and by name.
You’re wanted, not just by the dark fallen but by Morning Star. And, there’s
another one . . .” he gauged me with a serious look in his dark brown eyes.
A freezing chill suddenly spread
throughout my body as my mouth fell open. My heart began to thump rapidly in
response to his last few words, but it was more than simply hearing this.
~~Conversation between Durien and Starling
Divinity Immolation Book Three (Excerpt)
Then,
she smirked with deviance and her voice was purposefully low this time. “He’s
an Incubus and a powerful one at that. Sweet and taboo on so many levels. No
wonder you’re rendezvousing so soon after having just been with him. You can
practically feel his magical energy and aura stroking and caressing your skin.
But you’d better be careful. That combination among their kind makes him
extremely dangerous too. Shit!” Jamie then hissed.
“She may be weird but she nailed my
presence. She’s good.” Cam commented,
apparently impressed.
Damn.
How the hell had she managed to assess all of that so quickly and accurately?
Just how fascinated and into these supernatural beings was she and for how
long?
Jamie
suddenly wielded her weapon and was on her feet in a split second. I instantly
stiffened once the thick, silver, retractable chain linking her double
hand-held scythe blades together, took form in each of her hands. Her brandings
had a hint of a glow to them, just like mine began to do in automatic reflex to
the looming impending conflict and fight. I jumped to my feet and wielded my
blades too, just in case she tried to attack Cam.
“What are you doing? I said to wait,
I’ve got this! Don’t make me have to attack her over you!” I urged.
“She’s not attacking me. That damned
seraphim is quickly making his way back towards you two right now, and there’s
two fallen and several imps who have spotted you both. I’m getting you out of
here!”
“Me? What about them?” Adrenaline began to surge from the anticipation and
the current gravity of the dangerous situation.
“I don’t care about them.”
“That isn’t right, Cam!”
Before
I could even register or comprehend what just happened, Jamie disappeared in a
blur, running stealthily into the dense trees. After a grunt and what sounded
like a body slamming hard onto the ground, I ran over swiftly to see if she
needed help.
To
my astonishment, Spencer was lying on the ground —out cold with his illuminated
lightning Bo still in his grip.
“You
two had better get out of here now. He won’t be out long.” She urged and then
her head snapped over to the left.
I
smelled them now. The wind was picking up and the odor was foul, like old Sulphur,
rotten flesh, and wet feathers.
“Damn,
too late! You’re about to get your first crash course in combat right about
now!” Jamie shouted as she snapped her weapon taut in front of her. She began
swinging her right-handed scythe in a circular rotation so fast, it literally
formed a perfect, silver disc that appeared to be spinning backwards.
Now,
I was impressed. She can fight in hand to hand combat, she could classify an
unseen fallen quickly, and she could work her weapon like that? Despite her
bizarre, semi-sour personality, I guess she was pretty bad-assed.
The
underbrush rustled, leaves rushed upwards, and branches snapped signaling their
oncoming stampede. Above us, the wind began to pick up speed, kicking up dry
leaves as two large fallen began to dive down towards us from above like
shadowed missiles. Then, they both winked out of view and completely
disappeared right in front of our eyes.
Shit!
“Aw
hell, not good! They’ve cloaked themselves!” Jamie exclaimed.
Several
medium-sized forms were charging towards us on the ground from all directions
grunting, snorting, and snickering like wild, evil pigs. I didn’t freak out
this time. An intuition unlike any other I’ve ever felt since being here began
to kick in as we both readied ourselves to fight. I didn’t understand Jamie’s
initial action at first but I did now. I still didn’t know what it all meant
and if I could trust her at all though.
Glancing
at Spencer’s inert form on the ground, I felt guilty even though I hadn’t been
the one who had essentially sucker punched him.
“It
might not have been a good idea, knocking him out right about now. What are you
gonna tell him when he comes to?”
“He’ll
get over it” Jamie huffed.
The
anticipation of where the hell those fallen were going to emerge and attack
from, along with the imps, was definitely way more important —but we didn’t
have to make a move at all.
In
one swift blur, Cam literally swooped down. He stood in front of the both of us
protectively with his sword in hand, wings splayed out to shield us, and
stopping the two fallen in mid-dive as they calculatingly launched themselves
at us from the opposite sides.
His
heroic instinct, his height, muscular broadness, and the grand span of his
majestic, ruined wings, had us both awe-stricken. The intense heat of his power
and magic was practically tangible, causing static to crackle and thrum in the
air around him.
This
was all new to me. I’ve seen him in battle with that other fallen from the
club, but seeing it this close up and feeling it . . . was a completely
different experience.
He
stunned the fallen with a spray of long needles formed from light, which forced
them to materialize and give away their locations. While they screeched in
pain, he quickly took advantage, lighting his black sword and slicing across
the line of imps with swift ease. They didn’t even know that they had been
struck until they began to disintegrate into rank, acrid, steaming smoke. Then,
he went for the fallen.
I
heard bones breaking, grunting, growling, and the squishy sound of his blade
both slicing and tearing into flesh. The cloying smell of putrid blood made me
feel nauseous. It literally took him less than five minutes to destroy and kill
each and every one of the black-horned imps, and the two fallen that hadn’t
expected him to simply—appear in front of us. The combination of his master
sword handling and combat expertise turned me on. A bizarre reaction I know,
but it couldn’t be helped.
I
completely understood Jamie’s secret fascination with supernatural beings at
this very moment.
~~~Conversation between Jamie,
Starling, and Cam`ael
Divinity Realm of Annihilation Book Four (Excerpt)
I
moved in close to him and ran my fingers through the ultra-soft downy texture
of his feathers in fascination. I loved the way they felt against my fingertips
and palm.
“Are
you ready for me to take you back to your friends now?”
I
looked up at him in question. I thought I was going to have to continue to
argue my case with him.
Trying
to read past his expression, I replied, “You seem in a hurry and obliging to
take me all of a sudden. What gives?”
He
laughed. “Oh, now you don’t want to go, huh?”
“No,
that’s not it.” I shook my head. It was frustrating, he seemed a little moody
now.
“Did
you eat?” He asked.
“I’m
not hungry.”
“You
need to eat anyway. You’re eating for three. There are some things that I need
to do and I don’t want you to be here all alone.”
Looking
up at him, I narrowed my eyes. “What kinds of things?”
“Things
that were asked of me by Elohim a while back.” He revealed.
I
was instantly humbled. “Oh. Well, how long do you plan on being gone?”
There
was a long pause — one I didn’t like.
“I
don’t know.”
Those
words were like a sledge hammer straight to my gut. I even felt the twins
flutter briefly in response to my reaction. Out of my control, tears began to
fill my eyes. I wanted to punch him and throw myself into his arms at the same
time.
“Don’t
cry, Starling. I’m not leaving you. I could never do that, not unless you tell
me that you never want to see me again. Even then, you may as well kill me when
you say it.”
I
couldn’t help it. Warm tears began to stream down my face and he immediately
pulled me up into a hug.
“Then
where are you going and how long will you be gone?”
“I
can’t tell you. I mean, I could, but I’d rather not.” He set me back down after
kissing me tenderly.
Gazing
up at him through blurry eyes, I sniffed. “Why?”
“I
just can’t. Not right now.”
“What
about the babies?” More tears fell as my hands went to rest against my belly.
“I’m
not abandoning you, I promise.”
“Then
why can’t you tell me what’s going on and how long you’ll be gone?”
He
sighed, “You know how to reach me any time you need me. It’ll never take me
more than a few seconds to get to you.”
Half
of me wanted to collapse and faint, feeling as if Cam just ripped my heart into
two shattering pieces. I couldn’t believe he just said what I thought he said.
Struggling between crying, utter devastation and being angry, I hauled off and
put everything I had into jumping up to reach his face with a swift,
open-handed slap.
What
happened since the whole reassuring speech he gave me back at his place? How
much he loved me, how much I meant to him, and that he couldn’t exist without
me? Lies.
My
hand connected with his face in a loud, sharp clap and he grunted, his head
snapping to the side. I must have been super quick because he obviously wasn’t
prepared for it.
Disbelieving
what I had just done, he actually staggered sideways a bit from the impact.
I
didn’t realize that I had that amount of strength, but I guess I’ve never been
this pissed off before either. Even my brandings began to glow in reaction,
preparing for me to fight. He brought a hand to his cheek in shock, a scorching
red handprint was already forming on his skin. Did I burn him? Good!
“Okay,
I deserved that.” He nodded as he rubbed his face. My handprint was already gone
when he moved his hand. His eyes were suddenly focused on mine with an intense
fascination.
“Is
this what you call being soul-bound?” I was yelling, but my voice was wavering
as I struggled to keep myself from breaking down.
He
turned away from me. “This has nothing to do with that. We will always be
soul-bound. The soul-bond can only be broken by you.” He said softly.
“Then
why didn’t you just ask me to do that instead of this bullshit?” I couldn’t
stop my tears.
“That
isn’t what I want! Losing you would leave me with no reason to exist,
especially now that you’re having my children. Nothing in this Universe means
more to me than you!”
My
breath hitched. I was taken aback by his abrupt tone but it wasn’t anger, there
was passion in his proclamation.
“Stop
giving me the same damned speech! If you can just up and leave me like this,
then you don’t mean any of it!”
His
eyes tightened and he looked at me as if I had slapped him again. “I mean every
word!” Then he sighed, lowering his voice, “But I think I’ve made a mistake.”
Those
words stung.
I
took a step away from him. “A mistake? What, me? I’m the mistake? Getting me
pregnant?”
“No.
In wanting something that I was never supposed to have.” His voice was barely a
whisper and he turned away from me as if embarrassed.
I
didn’t even know what to say. Where was this coming from? So, this is what’s
been bothering him since we got here.
“At
the end of the day I’m still a demon, and I will always be a demon . . . filled
with darkness.”
He
turned to look down at me reverently. “I can’t allow myself to corrupt you,
Starling, especially the children. Because of me, you’re an open vessel. I can’t
take any more than what I’ve already taken from you and made you give up.”
So
that was it.
I
didn’t understand why this would occur to him now.
“Because
of you? You didn’t make me give up anything, Cam. I chose this! I chose you!
How dare you go out of your way to make me remember and fall in love with you
again, only to jump up and leave with a selfish notion that I’m that weak, or
that you are for that matter! We created these lives together and the babies
are a part of you too, of both of us. Light and dark can’t exist in the same
space, so explain to me how that was possible? How are you possible?” I
gestured at him with an upward flip of my hand.
He
seemed both confused and surprised that I was chewing him out like this, but at
least he was listening.
I
pointed to his left wing. “Have you actually looked at your wing lately? You
have more white and gold-edged ones now than I ever remember seeing before. The
feathers grew back that way. What does that tell you? I love you, not for what
you look like or what you were, for your magic or even how good you are in bed,
but for your soul and your heart! Doesn’t that mean anything to you?”
I
was trembling and my hands were tightly fisted by my sides, nails digging into
the heel of my palms. Hot tears of anger continued to roll down my cheeks.
Cam
just stared at me in silence— speechless, and taking a brief moment to glance
over at his left wing. After what I pointed out, he examined the feathers as if
he’d never seen his own wings before.
I
wiped my face and sniffed. “Maybe you’re right. Maybe this was never meant to
work at all, a warrior and a Fallen? The whole idea doesn’t even make sense!
We’re a ridiculous and pointless match!”
Judging
by the look on his face when I said that, you would have thought I was slowly
ripping his heart out with my bare hands.
My
breath caught and I couldn’t stop the fresh burst of tears, but I wasn’t
finished reaming him yet either. “I can’t argue or be mad if God truly asked
you to do something. But if you’re lying to me because you want to leave, then
go! You’re not a demon . . . you’re a selfish asshole!” I finally stammered,
not bothering to hear his reply. I swiftly turned to run back towards the
house.
He
quickly grabbed my arm and pulled me back to him, holding me. His wings
rustled, each fanning out and forward to curl around us both.
I
fought against him for a second before finally giving in and allowing him to
restrain me.
“It
isn’t a lie — but you’re right. I deserve all of your anger . . . including
that fiery bitch slap.” He whispered into my ear.
~~~Conversation between Starling
and Cam`ael
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